When did God become real?

[Bean of Love]

This is quite a difficult topic for me.....

I have always known God, but at this time I feel like that Poem about the foot prints.... I believe that God must be carrying me at the moment. I really want to walk next to Him and to be strong enough to do that, but I feel that I am failing miserably at the moment.

Please pray for me so that I can walk next to God again soon, as I am so scared that I lose my faith. At the moment I feel as if I cannot pray, and I cannot read my Bible... nothing makes sense to me at all.