08-06-2007, 04:07 PM
Icecub Wrote:Are any of you going thru this type of thing, and have you found your answer yet?
Please do not judge me - i have not judged you!:thumbs:
I have been through what you are going through My father passed in 1999 and at the time I was married to a Christian and I believed in God. I too questioned the reasons as to it all. Even more so when my ex started to use his 'Christian values' to beat me (never did it while my father was alive). I left my husband and I turned my back on God. I did become an athiest and hated all things religious - regardless of which one. This went on for quite a few years until I realised I was taking up too much energy hating. My moms partner helped me a lot by listening and letting me rant (staunch catholic). In time I started to make peace with myself and with the world around. I stopped hating my ex (though I will never forgive). I began to notice the beauty that surrounds me every day - small things like a butterfly, the sunset, the sound of young birds. I began to realise that athesism was not for me and became an agnositc. While I do not believe in the Gods of the faiths of this world I do believe in a being - one who allows us to have trouble and lets us learn from our mistakes. Lets us fail and watches as we grow and learn.
I do not believe in the bible as the truth but as a story that teaches us right from wrong. I am not a practicing Christian and doubt I will be again.
He/She may be God, may be an alien but either which way - Evolution or Creatism - not a bad place to be really.
Just look deep into yourself and believe what you want. Don't be swayed by others who insist they are right and all others are wrong. Only you will know the truth you seek.