03-06-2007, 12:42 PM
[COLOR="Purple"]Hi Cubbie...
Losing a loved one is very hard and it naturally brings all kinds of emotions and questions to the surface. I am sorry it is so hard for you. When my oldest brother died I became very angry with God - went into depression couldn't sleep, etc. It was so difficult for me. I remember that I finally sat on my couch in Amsterdam speaking out loud to the Lord what exactly I think of Him. He listened and let me be.... He doesn't get upset with our anger or our doubt.... and I remember so well that after awhile I sensed His peace and comfort and love. I sat there long enough to experience it.
I am sorry you feel judged by Christians. Some are so eager to share because they have received His love, but unfortunately it is done in an immature way. To be honest, I am weary of those kind of Christians too, because the God I know is a God of love - but He is also a God of truth. Sometimes we don't want to walk the walk of truth. Sometimes we like holding on to our grudges, having self pity parties, our unforgiveness instead of bring it to Him and leaving it with Him.
I don't believe in institutions either, but I believe that it is important to have fellowship with others, to get teaching of the Word. There is safety in it as we can be accountable to each other and not become a sect or going cultist. It is like a plumb line - we all need that divine plumb line to keep us straight.
I have just read the most amazing book "The Book that Transforms Nations". "The Book" is of course the Bible and I will post some of it in the next few days.
Cubbie... hope this journey won't last too long....
Love
:daisy:[/COLOR]
Losing a loved one is very hard and it naturally brings all kinds of emotions and questions to the surface. I am sorry it is so hard for you. When my oldest brother died I became very angry with God - went into depression couldn't sleep, etc. It was so difficult for me. I remember that I finally sat on my couch in Amsterdam speaking out loud to the Lord what exactly I think of Him. He listened and let me be.... He doesn't get upset with our anger or our doubt.... and I remember so well that after awhile I sensed His peace and comfort and love. I sat there long enough to experience it.
I am sorry you feel judged by Christians. Some are so eager to share because they have received His love, but unfortunately it is done in an immature way. To be honest, I am weary of those kind of Christians too, because the God I know is a God of love - but He is also a God of truth. Sometimes we don't want to walk the walk of truth. Sometimes we like holding on to our grudges, having self pity parties, our unforgiveness instead of bring it to Him and leaving it with Him.
I don't believe in institutions either, but I believe that it is important to have fellowship with others, to get teaching of the Word. There is safety in it as we can be accountable to each other and not become a sect or going cultist. It is like a plumb line - we all need that divine plumb line to keep us straight.
I have just read the most amazing book "The Book that Transforms Nations". "The Book" is of course the Bible and I will post some of it in the next few days.
Cubbie... hope this journey won't last too long....
Love
:daisy:[/COLOR]