18-01-2004, 05:56 PM
Talk about having the most ecstatic and disheartning two weeks rolled into one!
After very recently having found out I was pregnant, I was determined to do everything in my power to make this pregnancy work .. having suffered a miscarriage 2 years ago which was both a very physical and mentally traumatic experience, particulary the first of me knowing I was pregnant was because I loosing a baby .... I just knew something wasnt right, and when I passed out after loosing so much blood, the hospital confirmed what I thought - so you can imagine what i went through, blaming myself thinking maybe if I knew I was pregnant at the time, this wouldnt of happened ....
... anyway within half an hour of finding out this time I went down to Boots to get my Folic Acid tablets, the thought of drink made me sick and I cut down from 20+ ciggies a day to five within 24 hrs (to those of you who smoke will know what a feat this is!)
Everything was going fine for the first few days of me finding out .... without becoming graphic ... and to cut a long story short .... I lost the baby this weekend.
I have to go for a scan tomorrow at 9am
I feel so so quilty (for what I dont know) and hopeless ... what is wrong with me that I cant carry a child. I feel absolutely mortified.
The only consolation I can give to newly expectant mums though, is that according to the doctors I have seen over the past couple of days ... blood loss ... brown or red ... doesnt necessarily mean a miscarriage .... each case is different.
If anybody has been through a similar thing ... talk to someone ... more so to those who have been through it .... we seem to be forgotten about sometimes.
After very recently having found out I was pregnant, I was determined to do everything in my power to make this pregnancy work .. having suffered a miscarriage 2 years ago which was both a very physical and mentally traumatic experience, particulary the first of me knowing I was pregnant was because I loosing a baby .... I just knew something wasnt right, and when I passed out after loosing so much blood, the hospital confirmed what I thought - so you can imagine what i went through, blaming myself thinking maybe if I knew I was pregnant at the time, this wouldnt of happened ....
... anyway within half an hour of finding out this time I went down to Boots to get my Folic Acid tablets, the thought of drink made me sick and I cut down from 20+ ciggies a day to five within 24 hrs (to those of you who smoke will know what a feat this is!)
Everything was going fine for the first few days of me finding out .... without becoming graphic ... and to cut a long story short .... I lost the baby this weekend.
I have to go for a scan tomorrow at 9am
I feel so so quilty (for what I dont know) and hopeless ... what is wrong with me that I cant carry a child. I feel absolutely mortified.
The only consolation I can give to newly expectant mums though, is that according to the doctors I have seen over the past couple of days ... blood loss ... brown or red ... doesnt necessarily mean a miscarriage .... each case is different.
If anybody has been through a similar thing ... talk to someone ... more so to those who have been through it .... we seem to be forgotten about sometimes.
